Just realized in theTAG, I go everyone's house before, except his house. Wtf ? -.- one day must go :P Ideven know the address lah tsk. Then now cannot ask him, later he suspect cus I think he kinda suspecting sth or sth le. So now cannot. After mbt bah(:
Still having headache, but need to start studying again le, so yea. Hope I'll be fine !
Imy ): irmy.
rained @ 6:37 PM
Shit !! I was reading the posts through the app, then accidentally press to edit the post, then now the post order screwed up ! Hope it's not screwed up in the blog. Safari cannot open my blog dk why, and no time use com. Shall check it after mbt ! So if you're confused, I'm sorry ! ): and I hope the dates not screwed up lah, cus I wanna know when I did what also T.T
rained @ 6:20 PM
It's like everytime I thought time can allow my feelings for you to fade, it comes back and like "HAHA JK, wait long long also cannot" x.x whyyyy.
Having a slight headache now. Totally not prepared for physics exam tomorrow. I only finished reading 3 chapters out of idk how many -.- die liao. But tired also. Then like zzz ):
I wanna talk to you.
rained @ 6:08 PM
好想牵着你的手，逃到一个只有我们两个人的地方。
Hahas hello fish and whoever got the password and is reading this. Will have occasional random short, tweet-like posts cus they're just my random thoughts at the moment, but yet idwanna tweet it cus idwanna put pressure on him and our friendship if he ends up noticing it :X so yea.
Really like to blog, can blog about everything, whatever I'm feeling, without reservation, cus I believe I'm not judged by people who can see this(:
想你想你。ytd talk to him abit more, but it's cus of studies, so like, oh well. At least he spent some time with me ^^
Gonna study abit more now~ before going out for lunch !
rained @ 11:50 AM
I know I'm not your best girl friend. And it saddens me, because other than my dad and bro, you are most important guy. We can't be together, and I'm not your best girl friend. Thanks uh. Why can't you be less important to me ? ):
rained @ 2:39 PM
It happens all the time. Everytime I meet him, and then we go our own ways, I'll have withdrawal symptoms. Cannot take it. I thought I forgot about him liao ? I thought he's just a good friend ? Why liddat again ? Wtf tsk ):
He today very funny lah. Keep at random moments say he very shuai. Hahahah buay tahan him. Always like to fang Dian only. Then boast to me say got female strangers say he shuai (he heard by accident) lols. Shou bu liao. But there were moments when he just looked into my eyes, not for studies, not talking, just look, and I'm like trying to hard not to care, which I managed to, I managed to hide everything, so to him I think he thought he failed hahas.
rained @ 11:56 PM
Idk what's wrong with me. I kinda just cried ? Didn't want to cry myself to sleep or anything so I woke up to blog it.
Just saw his twitter. He tweeted stuff like "forever and always" and "sprained my thumb" and to the girl that like him "gan Ben". Idk what the last one mean, but he had a badge pinned on his pencil case which reads "Gan". And I asked him about it. He said "not I buy one" in a..not like "oh my friend buy one" kinda way. Like a.."okay don't ask me who is it" kinda way. I didn't think much about it at first, but after seeing that tweet, I can't help but think that it was given by her, and why was his reply so..weird ? Idk. I'm going crazy Liao I guess. Pictured myself asking him out on night and hugging him for a while, then I started to tear. I think I really am going crazy. Hate this kind of withdrawal symptoms. Really. 连我自己都受不了。
He told me he sprained his thumb. I told him to see a doctor but he dwant. I should have seen the tweet earlier ? But I guess my life didn't, and shouldn't, revolve around him ? Idk. Concerned about it now though, since I know it now.
And the song. Forever and always. To me, this is now our song, everytime I listen to it, I'll think of him. Just like how I everytime listen to 冻结 and 翅榜, I'll think of fuji, but no feelings attached, just remember only. It comes naturally so yea. But he probably didn't mean it that way. But to me, it just is. Forever and always. A very nice song too, so yea. He just intro-ed it to me today cus it was playing in mcdonalds, and only the two of us there cus the other study mate left already. We shared the earpiece. So last time.
Idk. But just like I've tweeted, "I want to have a lasting relationship with you (him). So even if it's friendship, I guess I'll have to accept it as it is." can't help it. I really wanna be close with him. So, have to control bah.
Shall go sleep now, hope can fall asleep. I think my body clock tune to 12 sleep Liao, nooooo. Have to sleep earlier !! Good night (: good night beast and Kotic -hearts- and you too, hope you enjoyed dinner celebrating your mum's birthday. Good night.
rained @ 11:56 PM
ohohoh ! need to chiong this post !! actually it's a picture spam post cus i gotta chiong back to study ! it's a kotic picture spam post ^^ beast next time, cus last time spam until dk what i havent post le hahah. all these from instagram ! kotic heart heart too :D
must strive and work hard to be like them, a singer, a successful one. my motivations. ^^
rained @ 3:01 PM
Just watched ep 100 of winwin on kbs world(: it's subbed btw ^^ and I watched cus..GOT BEAST ! :D THE WHOLE EPISODE IS ON BEAST. of course must watch right ! Hahah -hearts- LOVE THEM SO MUCH. Know EVEN MORE about them now. How much they've gone through, endured and suffered to become the SUPER POWERFUL BEAST ! and dongwoon's dad said something that really made me nod my head, from what I rmb the sub to be it's like "even (recycled group) losers like them can become so successful, I hope they are like a representation of hope". Even though I was kinda upset to see the word "losers" there, dongwoon's father may not have said it so crudely. But the meaning is there so ya. I totally agree with the last part. They are really my motivation. Really represents hope. Yoseob went through so much, so many auditions before he made it to beast, ironically even though his voice is the best in the group, and even compared to other groups and singers. But ya ! He went through so much, because he held on to his dream. He almost gave up, but he didn't, and just nice his chance and benefactor came and tada ! Singer ! LEAD VOCALIST of BEAST ! ^^ so proud of him. So proud of beast actually, cus every single one of them went through SO MUCH SO MUCH too. I LOVE YOU BEAST ! -hearts- sarangheyo.
Time to sleep. Shall wake up at 8am tomorrow, set alarm. And be motivated to study ! Lagging already ! COME ON I NEED TO DO THIS ! I CAN DO THIS ! JIAYOU !! BEAST HAS PROVED THAT THERE IS HOPE ! JIAYOU !! good night ! Good night beast -hearts-
rained @ 11:48 PM
I really keep thinking about you, though I really dk who are you. And you really dk me. Seriously dk what's wrong with me. He already didn't accept the fb request, so why did I think so much when he gave a second look ?? WHY ?? after straightening out my thoughts, that I should just stop thinking since he didn't even accept the friend request, now I'm thinking again, wth ? GAHHH.
Can't focus on my work. Dk why. Just damn sian urgh T.T not only cus of him lah, just dk why can't focus. TIME IS RUNNING OUT !! FASTER FOCUS !!
rained @ 5:37 PM
Finally something good happened ! We had a handroll making session during chrystal cus of our elective, japan hour ! Mine was nice and got praised by people ^^ the teacher even 特写 my handroll ! :D so happy and proud of it hahah !
rained @ 1:23 PM
What a bad day.
Morning in bus whole journey standing and squeezing with people. Had a fcuked up table during econs lecture and that "good friend" of mine didn't wanna shift one place so I can have a normal table. Physics test one digit again. Damn tired. Feeling like crying. Seriously. Whatever lah kay whatever. Bad day jiu bad day hao le. 我认了，算了。
rained @ 10:41 AM
Damnnnnn. Now to think about it, if I become chairperson good sia ! Then can know who is he and stuff. Wah sian -.-
And I "lost" to her by like 2 votes or less only. First round I 12 sia. Sigh. Really no fate to know him.
rained @ 6:53 PM
love this. love their concentrate ^^ the dogs are cute right ? the white one is dollar. the black one is nammun. tomo with dollar one damn cute ! heheheh. love tomo ! hearts. always so cute and shuai. ahh. heh. sometimes cannot tahan sia. too shuai already. he's my phone wallpaper ! next time upload that one (: after exam gonna see if my phone can have multiple wallpaper for different "slide". then can have one for each member of beast and kotic. or just a group pic each, and my biases ! :DD tomo gikwang yoseob and dujun ! woohoo ! :P hahah. kk shall go back to study first ! maybe got time at night then come back ! byebye !